Wednesday, July 5, 2023

As Vulnerable As It Gets...

Like every year on my birthday, I become extra introspective, and I end up here on my blog!  It's unbelievable that this thing is still alive.  I sometimes cringe a little when I read entries from more than a decade (!) ago.  I guess I have matured in my 20s and 30s.

I want to do things a little differently this year.  Instead of writing a long blog post from scratch like I did two years ago, let me lift some lines off from my daily journal.  The journal requires me to list one affirmation and one lesson every single day.  Here's a snippet of what I have written from the past few months leading up to my birthday.


Daily Affirmations

  • I have what I need to provide joy and care to those around me.
  • This life is a gift.  It may be broken and painful at times, but this life is good.
  • In whatever profession we do, we are called to do good and do good for others.  
  • When it comes down to it, I really have nothing to fear.
  • Whatever difficulties I face will help me build my own character, so I can fulfill whatever purpose has been set for me.
  • I am called to be a cheerful giver, not out of compulsion or self-gratification... but because it is the right thing to do.
  • I give delight and joy to other people.
  • Whatever I do from now on will be part of what I leave for this world.  I will do good and be a source of light to others.
  • I will use wisdom and good judgment before I let out any word from my mouth.
  • I will work heartily - with a full heart - and not only for myself.
  • I choose faith, hope, and love...over fear.
  • There's a lot of reason to celebrate - not only what I do, but more importantly, who I am and who I have become as a person.  As a human being.

What I Learned Today
  • Seeking feedback and working on it is liberating.  Putting people's needs first is fulfilling.
  • There's so much joy in putting others first, but I need to be intentional to create this capacity.
  • I am more effective when I focus on the task at hand, the person in front of me... and less of my ego.
  • Sharing others' joys and making it about them... is such a profound source of joy.
  • I have a prettyyy good self-control when shopping for clothes.  Today's trip to Fab India is clear evidence.
  • WhatsApp is taking up too much time.  I want to find connections outside of it.
  • My emotions are my teachers.  They're not me.
  • I feel alive when I have authentic connections with people.
  • I need to find a place and create the space that keeps my MIND quiet, so that I can really focus.
  • Bad sleep or lack of sleep really ruins my day.
  • You can better identify opportunities to help when you come from a place of curiosity, not a place of judgment.
  • (One week after) It's difficult to let curiosity - not judgment - lead.  But it's necessary.
  • Words can kill.  There's a high cost to pay for the aftermath.
  • Regret or remorse are worthless if they don't lead to a change of heart and action.
  • If what you will say is mainly for your ego, don't say it.
  • It energizes people when you truly take their ideas and make them BIG.
  • It is okay - sometimes it is better - to be vulnerable with your boss.
  • I need to be kinder to myself.  All my life, I've been my biggest critic.  I need to start being my biggest fan.
  • (One day before my birthday) Doing joyful things on my own gives me energy.  Especially when they're my favorite things... and when I do them with Charlie.

As vulnerable as it gets for a 30-something me. 😍